I pray this Friday is finding you resting in his grace and love.

I have been through hell the past 3-6 months.  Been totally lost in darkness, chaos and confusion.  Had little to no desire to search for him or read his Word.  Fear crept in and was (and still is) controlling me.

Friend, I don’t know if you have ever been in a similar spot, but if you have, you know the torment and turmoil one can go through when all the things he has trusted in are crumbling all around you.

I don’t know how I will make my next house payment as business has ground to a halt.  I don’t know how I will restore the connection to my teenager.  I don’t know how to get reconnected.  But, I do know that our loving father does and I am asking him daily to help me with these things.  He must do them as I can’t.  “I” am only dead weight and my ways are of the flesh which are under the “letter of the law” and only seem to kill me 2 Corinthians 3:6.  I find my ways are all dead ends.

In short, I believe I have “lost Jesus” who is life.  John 14:6.  Simon Peter’s answer in John 6:68 is upon my heart often as I beg him to please finish the work inside soon.

Simon Peter answered Him, “Lord, to whom shall we go? You have words of eternal life John 6:68

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