I don’t know what happened, but the Spirit seems gone. He was very active for 3 years speaking and revealing powerful things to me.
Then, sometime in April I think, it seems he just vanished. That is why I haven’t posted. It would be me attempting to fake it. Before this was impossible.
Since that time, I have not been hearing him and really struggling with darkness on and off. Most days I have no desire to even study his Word.
“What’s the use”? I hear. “Nobody seems to care what God’s word says anyway”. For me, the power comes when I get to share the awesome things I hear with others and they receive them. If no one can receive them, I can’t seem to “open the package” it seems.
Yes, but true to what I am experiencing. And have been experiencing. Life has been very dark for the most part since that time.
I do hope he returns or “unhides” himself. Lord, where are you?
The Spirit is Free and in Color
Today, I believe I finally “paid my taxes”.
The Lord has been working mightily in my heart the past 3 years, but especially INTENSELY in the past 3 weeks. Today, being the day of “taxes” on the “first fruits” of the natural “land” (of our natural bodies), I believe I am hearing strongly from him. Scripture has come together in a way that you can’t imagine from Genesis all the way to Revelation as ONE. I am feeling a sense of tremendous freedom like never before inside.
I am absolutely and 100% convinced that great and MIGHTY things are coming that we can not fathom in our natural outer person.
At the same time he has been correcting “me” – Duane, the person you know me as in my outer, natural person. The things I write and share are NOT for the public. Sorry Lord. You know how zealous I am for all to know and see the truth of your grace.
These things are to remain hidden as they are for his own body (at this time) and not ALL is to be revealed … YET. Only those who are part of his body right now have been given the understanding of the (spiritual) parables he speaks in the Word and inside us. Mark 4:11, Luke 8:10, Matt 13:11. The rest who are under law still (as Pharisees and Sadducees) will only persecute his body as they haven’t been given the “keys to the kingdom” yet and will be offended and threatened.
Are feelings real?
Do you ever wake up one morning and suddenly everything appears dark and grim?
Situations and “things” that you viewed as very positive just the day before no longer appear that way at all. As a matter of fact, they seem to be a burden rather than a blessing.
You feel like you were somehow blindsided by a Mac truck in the middle of the highway. No, you feel you are STILL BEING RUN OVER by a Mac truck.
And is backing up and moving forward over and over.
You can’t even get a perspective to see what is happening. You just hear the engine rev and see the tires coming again.
If you could only get out from under “it” to see what in the world is going on.
Whatever “it” is.Continue reading
Do we have one eye or two?
Friends and brethren,
The Father continues to show me miraculous signs. I have been continuing to write them down as they appear in my daily experience. I would love to go into them in detail, but this format is not conducive to that.
Let me tell you that I believe yesterday was my own personal “execution on the cross”. My natural body is still alive, but everything points to my spiritual execution. I was very afraid approaching it, but I knew it was coming. The Lord gave me many signs.
I was “executed” by two well-dressed men in nicely pressed business suites who shined like Angels. They were very polite, respectful and “matter of fact”. I am convinced they were from God.Continue reading
Could God’s true plan to Heaven be the cross of death for all of us?
Good morning friends,
I am stumbling upon something mighty and amazing this morning after having a very quiet (spiritually speaking) 1-2 weeks. I have heard glimmers of this in the past and find it in my study notes, but this morning it is coming to me very strong as I study the genealogy of Abraham. As we do so, it is always a great idea to be asking God in our hearts “what are you REALLY telling us here”?
For example, we are taught in the Christian religion that Abraham was a man who God blessed and gave great favor to. Wherever and whatever Abraham did, it was successful. God told him that he would bless all families and nations through him. Also, through “his seed” would come one who would be the savior of the world.
These things are all true according to the Bible, but is God telling us more than appears on the surface? Was Abraham a mere man in a human body or is there MUCH more that God is revealing here about creation and our future? I believe so and when you see it, it is VERY exciting!Continue reading
Ok, so this is the first time I have ever used Word press or setup a blog. Just felt I had something to say.
I am a newbie, a rookie. I am going to make a lot of mistakes.
I hope you will bear with me and be patient. I am learning.