I don’t know what happened, but the Spirit seems gone.  He was very active for 3 years speaking and revealing powerful things to me.

Then, sometime in April I think, it seems he just vanished.  That is why I haven’t posted.  It would be me attempting to fake it.  Before this was impossible.

Since that time, I have not been hearing him and really struggling with darkness on and off.  Most days I have no desire to even study his Word.

Why?

“What’s the use”?  I hear.  “Nobody seems to care what God’s word says anyway”.  For me, the power comes when I get to share the awesome things I hear with others and they receive them. If no one can receive them, I can’t seem to “open the package” it seems.

Depressing huh?

Yes, but true to what I am experiencing.   And have been experiencing.  Life has been very dark for the most part since that time.

I do hope he returns or “unhides” himself.  Lord, where are you?

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Are feelings real?

Do you ever wake up one morning and suddenly everything appears dark and grim?

Situations and “things” that you viewed as very positive just the day before no longer appear that way at all.   As a matter of fact, they seem to be a burden rather than a blessing.

You feel like you were somehow blindsided by a Mac truck in the middle of the highway.   No, you feel you are STILL BEING RUN OVER by a Mac truck.

And is backing up and moving forward over and over.

You can’t even get a perspective to see what is happening.  You just hear the engine rev and see the tires coming again.

If you could only get out from under “it” to see what in the world is going on.

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