I have been going through a tough and challenging experience that maybe you have as well if you are a “person of faith”.
For some crazy, insane reason, I actually believe the Lord is living inside me.
Is this a crazy thought or maybe even “blasphemy” as many “Christians” are telling me in not so nice words?
Well, what are we told to do by Christians when they first approach us?
Don’t they tell us to “accept Jesus into your heart” and “your sins will be forgiven”?
If I truly do that, then where is Jesus living?
If he is inside my heart, then isn’t he in truth my real inner “self”? I don’t know, maybe I see things more concretely than most. I accept things at “face value” and like things to be simple.
I can assure you of one thing. If you “accept Jesus into your heart” and then truly believe he is inside you and lives “as you” then you will be GREATLY ostracized by many “Christians“!
That’s right, the VERY folks who told you to “accept Jesus into your heart” will now call you names and separate from you because you actually believed them.
I know there are a lot of “everyday” Christians who do many good deeds for others and truly love them. I am not talking about them. I am referring to the “super-Christian” who seems to be the one who is “rising” in the ranks and is in some type of “leadership” whether formal or informal.
They will call you “prideful” and “arrogant” if you believe that you are hearing from the Lord and especially if you REALLY believe that he lives inside of you. My experience has been that they want you to “accept him into your heart” (whatever that means to them) but then continue to listen to and continue to follow exactly what THEY say.
But, didn’t you say that Jesus was LORD?
I found that they do NOT allow you to actually BELIEVE the LORD is inside leading you or that you can hear from him. You must still obey and submit to all they teach and say and do. You must continue to believe exactly what they believe (or less) and do exactly what they do (or less) and NO GREATER.
Your faith must be <= their faith or you will be ostracized.
If your faith becomes “greater than the accepted status quo”, you will be harshly rejected, but in private only. All public encounters will be avoided at all cost and a “happy face “must be put on. This is very hard for me. I am not able to hide my true feelings very well or for very long. I “come clean” very fast and it’s not always very “pretty”. But, I believe it always is “good” as it keeps me honestly connected to my own heart and true to my “self”.
So, do we accept him into our heart or not? Is he our Lord or are “they”?
Is this just a strange “irony” or is this hypocrisy at it’s greatest?
Or is this the personal fulfillment of the words of the Lord when he said “”You will be hated by all because of My name, but it is the one who has endured to the end who will be saved” in Matthew 22? Btw, the word “name” is related to Noah’s son “Shem” which means “soul”. “Name” = “soul” = unique individual.
So, this is what I believe and am fully convinced what his word says over and over and over.
That he is my inner and true being and the core “essence” of what “I am” behind “the veil” that separates my “inner” and “outer” man Paul talks about in 2 Cor 4:16.
Therefore we do not lose heart, but though our outer man is decaying, yet our inner man is being renewed day by day 2 Cor 4:16
Do you see we are actually two separate people? One “inner” and one “outer”? What separates them?
A (spiritual) veil which is his actual “flesh”.
by a new and living way which He inaugurated for us through the veil, that is, His flesh Hebrews 10:20
So, I guess I am crazy if I truly believe he does live inside me. That my true “me” or the true “I” is “he” living within “behind the veil”.
Call me arrogant or prideful if you must. I will still love you.